wuding | (no subject)

That’s true. The only thing I know about him is that he was desperate enough to destroy his own soul for revenge. And from the general reactions I got from his family and the Jin cultivators, he was fairly eccentric.

I guess I’ve been thinking about it and even though he doesn’t exist in any meaningful way anymore… maybe I should try to thank him in some way. I know it won’t make a difference to him. Maybe it’s just to make myself feel better.

We shall take him a tablet to our new house. You wish more?

No, that’s a good idea. He’ll be remembered that way.

The kids noticed I was in a mopey mood! I used to be better about staying chipper in public.

Want me to collect food for dinner here or do you want to get something from the kitchens in Cloud Recesses?

Dinner from Caiyi.

Wei Ying. Do you wish the house raised or stalled this year?

Great. I’ll pick up all our favorites.

Let’s let the workers build it at their own pace instead of rushing them.

To be honest, it sounds like it’ll be too lonely if I move in this summer.

Perhaps better. More time to order furniture pieces to your pleasure.

I’ll drag Sizhui around with me to look at furniture sometime soon. Not today, though. We’re on a mission to find Jingyi some new boots.

Lan Liang will grow jealous.

Should I get him some shoes, too?

A treat.

I’ll get him something he won’t choke on. Maybe some soft fruit.

I know I just saw you this morning, but I miss you already.

Surprised Wei Ying has not tired of children.

A-Liang has been quiet most of the day. He’s only had a fit a couple of times. The first time he needed changing and the second time was because I was late giving him his numbing ointment.

And Sizhui. Jingyi. You shoulder much.

Sizhui and Jingyi pretty much take care of themselves.

Don’t worry, Lan Zhan. It’ll take more than spending half a day with them for me to get frustrated. If Liang were more fussy today, that would make things different.

You’rea shouldering a lot right now, too.

I only yet wish Wei Ying befriended by grown men.

Most people our generation are still unnerved by my presence.

But maybe you have a point. I do spend most of my time around you and the kids. And even when we’re not together, I spend the whole time talking to you like this or daydreaming about you when you’re too busy talk.

Shall I... request Wei Ying a companion?

Order or pay someone to spend time with me? No, thanks.

I’ll branch out. Maybe if I get my archery back into shape, I can use the archery range the senior disciples use. Now that A-Liang has his nursemaid, I can get out of the jingshi more.

There is no shame in making arrangements for companionship, whilst the sect learns you are of peace.

I can make my own friends. I just haven’t bothered because I’d rather spend my time with you. Give me a couple weeks and I’ll prove it to you.

I wish Wei Ying's world vaster than one person.

Thanks, Lan Zhan.

It’s not like I never talk to anyone besides you and the kids. I just don’t feel close to anyone else right now.

It was different in Lotus Pier.

If I go to Lotus Pier now, it would be the same. Non-cultivators are fine with me, but my peers would keep their distance because of my reputation.

Maybe I’d have better luck convincing my old friends that I’m still the same Wei Wuxian they grew up with. To be honest, they started treating me differently after the war because of the demonic cultivation.