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[shangba]

( Midday, past lunch observed with Xichen: )


How fared the children this morning?

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[shangba]

I would not condescend you.

To fight you is to fight for my life.

[emperorssmile]

You have that much confidence in me. Thanks Lan Zhan! I won’t let you down.

[shangba]

Wei Ying. Answer me in truth.

Do I disappoint you?

[emperorssmile]

What?

Why would I feel disappointed in you?

[shangba]

Wei Ying works tirelessly on his improvement.

I do nothing.

[emperorssmile]

Lan Zhan… you don’t see how amazing you are, do you?

You’ve cultivated to immortality and you’re carrying me on top of it. You maintain your mind and body on top of all the time you have to do politics or entertain me.

And then there’s me. I’m stuck playing catch up. I’m nowhere near the level I should be. I don’t even have as much control over demonic cultivation as I did during my first life. And not just because I don’t have the yin tiger tally.

[shangba]

...not cultivated to immortality.

In truth, barely progress.

Wei Ying. You are not lesser than.

[emperorssmile]

You’re not lesser, either.

Do you want me to teach you what you need to do for immortality? I mean, it’ll be a few years before I really know it works, but it should in theory. It’s not that difficult, but it requires a little bit of demonic cultivation.

[shangba]

Wei Ying.

[emperorssmile]

What? It’s what I have to do, isn’t it? I guess that would be going against the sect though…

[shangba]

You cannot ask this of me.

[emperorssmile]

I won’t.

I don’t want to live forever if it’s not with you, though.

[shangba]

For our children.

[emperorssmile]

Lan Zhan…

I can’t face that on my own.

[shangba]

Would you look them in the eye and say so?

[emperorssmile]

They’ll be adults with their own lives by then. They won’t need me anymore.

[shangba]

Children ever need their parents.

We orphans know so.

[emperorssmile]

Isn’t my natural life long enough?

[shangba]

In their stead, would you think it so?

[emperorssmile]

I wouldn’t want them to suffer just for my sake.

Would you cultivate to immortality for the kids if I weren’t there at your side?

[shangba]

No.

[emperorssmile]

If I lose you, I promise that I won’t give up and that I’ll live the rest of my life for the kids. But I can’t face hundreds of years without you.

I’m sorry, Lan Zhan.

[shangba]

...no. I asked too much.

[emperorssmile]

You ask so little of me most of the time. You just had the kids in mind.

I just assumed you asked me to figure it out so we could stay together longer. I’ll keep working on it until I can find a way that doesn’t use demonic cultivation.

[shangba]

Though less skilled, shall humbly assist.