return from lanling

[shangba]

A full moon, unblinking.

You did not sleep, to see?

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[emperorssmile]

Does it make you smile when you think of it? If Lan Zhan’s smiling, it’s worth eating some extra food.

[shangba]

Wei Ying, striving to eat, to warm, to cultivate.

To extend himself kindness.

It fills my heart with fondness. Aches.

[emperorssmile]

Lan Zhan, you’re really happy? If taking care of myself makes you happy, maybe it’ll be easier for me to think about it.

[shangba]

I wish for nothing past it and the health of my children.

[emperorssmile]

I’ll try my best, Lan Zhan. I’ll treat myself the way you’d treat me, even when you’re not there with me.

[shangba]

I thank you.

[emperorssmile]

Just be patient with me because it doesn’t come naturally. I really will try my best, though.

[shangba]

I also shall change however Wei Ying requires.

[emperorssmile]

You're already encouraging me to repair my relationship with Jiang Cheng. And I have your blessing to keep Jin Ling in my life, too. What more could I want?

[shangba]

I do not know.

But want, ambitiously. Never be satisfied.

[emperorssmile]

Isn’t the goal to be satisfied?

I’ll make sure Lan Zhan knows what I want if something comes to mind.

[shangba]

Not with me. You must always demand more.

[emperorssmile]

What if I demand more than you can give?

[shangba]

Then I shall work to rise to occasion.

[emperorssmile]

You'll do the same for me, right? Let me know if there are some things I can change that would make you feel happy and loved.

[shangba]

I am not the one long forced to silence his wants.

[emperorssmile]

Weren’t you? You were raised to strictly follow thousands of oppressive rules.

[shangba]

Wei Ying. Your nature is free flow, untamed. Rules oppress you.

They protect me. Offer stability.

[emperorssmile]

There are rules against laughing.

I want you to feel free when you’re with me. Free to say or do whatever you want without worrying about whether or not it would break one of the Lan Doctrines.

Do you feel free?

[shangba]

At times.

[emperorssmile]

That’s better than never.

Is it because of something I do?

[shangba]

At times, too much choice overwhelms. Rules assist.

[emperorssmile]

Mmm, I could be more bossy then. Just as long as you promise to tell me when it gets annoying.

[shangba]

New rules unnecessary. Only understanding for the old.

At times, you seek to rupture me from them.

[emperorssmile]

I'm just thinking out loud.

I thought Lan Zhan liked rules.