return from lanling

[shangba]

A full moon, unblinking.

You did not sleep, to see?

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[emperorssmile]

I don’t know.

If I could, then I’d sleep better when we’re apart. I’d probably be happier, or at least freer, without the weight of them. But would I still be me if I didn’t remember those things?

[shangba]

You would be a different man.

[emperorssmile]

Lan Zhan loves the man I am. I won’t consider trying to seal the memories.

[shangba]

Wei Ying.

I too sleep poorly in your absence.

[emperorssmile]

How often for you?

I know you’d still love me, so I’m not saying I’ll keep my memories just for you. I love what we have together now.

[shangba]

At times, if I do not see Wei Ying upon waking, I do not know him alive.

[emperorssmile]

Lan Zhan… you spent so long mourning me that your heart still feels it.

Sending me a note like this won’t help because I’d most likely be sleeping when you write.

I wish to be by your side every time you open your eyes.

[shangba]

Then, at least we know we are both bound.

[emperorssmile]

Back in my first life, I never wanted to be bound by anything. But I wouldn’t want it any other way, now.

[shangba]

Old. Rusting.

[emperorssmile]

Maybe we’ll have fewer worries and our nightmares will fade over time.

[shangba]

I hope. Pray. Will accept, as comes.

I shall see Wei Ying shortly.