return from lanling

[shangba]

A full moon, unblinking.

You did not sleep, to see?

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[shangba]

If I must bleed, let it be to equals.

[emperorssmile]

No bleeding (unless you really want to), but I’ll pounce on you as equals.

[shangba]

Wei Ying wishes to... hunt me?

[emperorssmile]

Lan Zhan… I love you too much!

What I meant by hunting is closer to pursuing. Taking the lead in bed sometimes even though you’ll be the one on top once we get going.

[shangba]

( A delay, before a full note appears: )

Wei Ying. If you wish to lead, lead. If you wish to penetrate, do so. If you wish to hide and plead and beg and mewl, proceed. If you wish to hide and be spoiled, burrow. If you wish to bleed me, sharpen your claws. If you wish to care and stroke, ready a gentle hand. If you wish to be taken, receive.

I shall enjoy you in each of your shapes. Shall learn. Shall hold.

[emperorssmile]

You know me, I like a little bit of everything. You let me try out all sorts of things. Is it so bad that I want to know what things you want to try, too?

You’ll tell me if it’s something you don’t want to do, won’t you?

[shangba]

It is not my nature to complain.

[emperorssmile]

Then state it plainly and I won’t take it as a complaint.

[shangba]

Then I may speak openly of all my dislikes?

Wei Wuxian, why ask for your misfortune?

[emperorssmile]

If it’s something you’d like me to work on, go for it.

Sleeping together should be something we both enjoy. If I’m doing something you don’t like, how will I ever know if you don’t tell me? You’d want me to tell you if I don’t like something.

[shangba]

I do not like when you treat me as if I require coaxing.

[emperorssmile]

Okay, that’s fair.

You’re an adult and you can tell me when something bothers you. I’ll stop being pushy about it.

[shangba]

I would prefer if my husband spoke his mind and interests freely, sooner than asked coyly for permission like a servant at my door.

[emperorssmile]

That’s something I can work on.

I’m still getting used to your love, Lan Zhan. It’s so much more permissive than I assumed love could be. And I’m still getting used to the idea that I can be loved for who I am instead of who I should be.

I trust you to stay with me forever, so it’s not that I’m worried I’ll lose you. I’m just worried that I’ll hurt you over and over again without realizing it.

[shangba]

Inquire again. Properly.

[emperorssmile]

Are you happy with our love life?

Do you have any fantasies you’d like to explore together?

Do we do anything you dislike?

[shangba]

I am happy. We do nothing I dislike.

At times, I wish for Wei Ying to use my mouth, for all it yet learns. At others, to take him in the gardens, or by the cold river bank. At others, to enjoy him a night full, between hands, mouths, jade and my body, until Wei Ying is no longer restless.

Is this suitable?

[emperorssmile]

We haven’t messed around on the river bank yet. We should do it next time we have some decently warm weather.

The best way to train that mouth of yours is to use it. Tonight?

Thanks, Lan Zhan. This is very informative.

[shangba]

Know it is not... the adventure Wei Ying requires.

[emperorssmile]

I don’t mind. It still feels good even if it’s not to completion.

[shangba]

No. My notions. Not as... extraordinary as Wei Ying's.

[emperorssmile]

Oh! That’s fine, too, Lan Zhan. I’m surprised you’re interested in messing around near the river. I figured you were too shy to do something like that when anyone could come across us.

[shangba]

I know the untravelled hours.

[emperorssmile]

Sounds like fun. We probably won’t get caught, but it’s still exciting because there’s a tiny chance of it.

Talking about this just makes me want you now. I’m no good at being patient.

[shangba]

Am I sufficient for Wei Ying? At times, believe not.