wuding | (no subject)

...Wei Ying. How are you?

I don’t know.

I mean, I knew what I was getting myself involved with, but actually facing it is different.

All those people whose only crime was teaching themselves my methods. And Jiang Cheng hated me so much that he took that hatred and anger out on otherwise innocent ghost cultivators.

It’s a lot to take in.

He had his cruelty.

If they deserved it, that would be one thing. But their only crime was following my lead.

They made their choices.

And Jiang Cheng made his.

I’m not usually at a loss for words, but I don’t know what to say to him.

There are things unforgivable.

If it weren’t for me, he wouldn’t have done those things.

I can’t blame him for hating me so much, but you’re right. I can’t just accept what he did, either.

Eat, my love. Replenish yourself.

I’m not hungry.

Jiang Cheng’s not at the main hall and the servants don’t know where he went.

You win. I’ll try to eat something before I look for him.

You needn't, if you do not wish to.

Okay, I’ll try to eat something later.

Maybe I’ll go bathe and then visit the ancestral hall.

Can you sleep before I reach you?

To replenish.

I don’t know… I could try?

I’m tired but it’s not the sleepy sort of tired. I’ll see how I feel after I’ve washed the death smell off of me.

I know I’d feel better if I ate, washed, meditated, and slept, but I don’t feel like doing any of those things. What should I try first?

Too restless for meditation. I shall see you washed.

Eat or sleep.

I’ll try to eat first. I’ll lay down when I get back to the room.

Next time I do something like this, I’ll take you with me. I thought I’d be working with Jiang Cheng the whole time.

We hunt in pairs. It is known.

I should have stopped when he did, but I wanted to finish the job instead of coming back to it later.

I’d say I’ll be better next time, but I’ll stick with night hunting with you or the kids.

You should not have had to come alone.

Yeah, I guess I should have had you come with me from the start. I was worried Jiang Cheng wouldn’t want anyone else to see what should be his shame.

He will not think of it so.

He wasn’t always like this.

Come with me to the Ancestral Hall tonight or tomorrow. I’d like to visit it one more time before I talk to Jiang Cheng.

To visit your sister?

Among other things.

I want to tell them that my service to the Jiang family is complete and that I leave Jiang Cheng in their hands.

You will regret so.